Dreaming From Scratch

Living the dream, starting with nothing.

Category : Everyday Life

Six Month Flyby!

The last 6 months, since the baby was born, have absolutely flown by.  The changes she has gone through are so extreme.  She has much more of a personality than three months ago and can accomplish more as well.

Within the past week, Elaina has developed the strength to get up onto her hands and knees.  While she usually faceplants, she is making progress.  Soon she will be crawling along.  We’ll need to start putting more things into lockdown.  Get rid of trinkets, put locks on cupboards, and a gate for the stairs.

It’s so easy to take the changes for granted.  She would need to be held, bounced, fed, sang to, or changed constantly.  She seems to be gradually giving a bit more rest on these issues.  While now there may be a little more time freed from covering basic needs, developing her coordination and social skills is taking more priority.

With that, here is Elaina Maria on piano!

My Life and Pixar

Last night while I was feeding Elaina for the last time before baby-bedtime, Todd and I watched the beginning of Up. The first time I saw it (in theaters) it brought tears to my eyes. This time was no different, but the tears were for a different reason.

Have you seen the movie? The opening scene contains a montage of a couple’s life. They have a dream of moving to Paradise Falls in South America and building their home – a dream they’ve shared since childhood. Of course, a dream this big takes money – so they start a savings jar.

Carl and Ellie from Up

The ambitious couple.

But then life happens. The jar is smashed open again and again because an urgent expense requires its use. Slowly they grow older, doing the frustrating dance of  “one step forward, two steps back.”

Then she gets sick and passes away. They never made it to their dream. It’s absolutely heartbreaking.

I saw too much of myself in that montage. How do you build toward a big dream without letting everyday life get in the way? How do you keep your sewer from backing up, the branch from falling on your roof, the unexpected medical bill from popping up?

Well, you can’t. Those things will happen.

But our tenants have paid us rent twice now. It feels SO good to have someone else pay our mortgage. Now we want to buy our next property as soon as we can.

We’ve got to change the dance. We need to take three steps forward as fast as we can, so those two steps back don’t erase our progress. Because we’ll never reach our dream land without the finances to keep it running.

Good morning, baby! No, 4am is an excellent time to wake up. Coffee. Need Coffee. Diaper first. OK, now coffee. You’re hungry? OK, coffee can wait. All fed. Time for coffee. Oops for got to burp you. Will regret it if I don’t. Burping done. Now hang out in your chair for a second while I make coffee.Baby in Chair

Coffee is brewing! Happy momma. Oh! You are happy too! I love your smiles!! Smiley baby. Too distracted by beautiful smiles to notice coffee is done.

Woops spit up. But it’s ok, you have a bib on. Changing the bib. Uh oh, all bibs are dirty. Washing bibs. Yay for having a washing machine at last. And more spit up. Changing outfit. And you are sad again. Why? I think hungry. Yep! I’m right. You want more food.

All fed. Can mommy have some coffee now? Yes? Hooray! I love coffee at 5:30 am. It really is the best time for coffee, because you appreciate it so much. 1st cup of coffee down. Happy mommy.

Tummy Time? Everyone says we should have tummy time, so we do! Look at you, so strong!Tummy Time Aaaaand, 30 seconds later VERY angry. HATE tummy time. No more tummy time.

Should we read a book? Ok. Dr. Suess. What a weirdo. But you love the pictures, so we’ll read it again. How about Where the Wild Things Are? Also love those pictures. How about Runaway Bunny? Nope. not enjoying Runaway Bunny. Let’s go look in the mirror for awhile.

Look! That’s you! in the mirror! You are so cute! Do you see you in the mirror? Awww…. And there’s the dirty diaper. Ew. Hate dirty diaper.

But I do love the diaper changing smiles.

No more smiles? Why not? Oh! Because you’re hungry, again. No problem.

All fed. Lets sing songs. Lullabies? No! We like marches. 76 Trombones! Battle Hymn of the Republic! The Ants Go Marching! And you’re sleepy… sleepy… asleep… back to bed at 8am… I love bed… Goodnight baby… You look so peaceful. Sleepy Baby See you in an hour or so. I’ll sleep too. Well, I’ll try. The coffee just kicked in.

This last summer has been interesting for the two of us.  We packed up our world and moved 1,500 miles away.  There have been some setbacks and trials.  Ultimately we got through them all of them and we are still able to progress towards our dream.  With that, here is the recap of “Proving Murphy’s Law”

Part 1 – Selling the Car – In a state with rigorous inspections, a check engine light can be a big deal!  We had huge difficulties getting rid of the car with our time crunch.  In the end we wound practically giving the car away!

Part 2 – Emptying out the Freezer – With a huge stash of strawberries in the freezer that we spent hours picking, Ann decided to try her hand at canning.  At the same time as packing up the house.

Part 3 – Finding an Appartment – After accepting a job and agreeing to move across the country,  it was discovered how scarce places to rent were.  Especially with big giant dogs planning on moving in too.  The upside to this story is that it pushed us into looking at buying a house.

Part 4 – Moving our Lives - This is a particular epic disaster that is still causing me ulcers!  Basically we hired some scam artists rather than a moving company.  What a huge pain!  We were able to file a claim through the bank to get the money refunded, but Todd had to fly out and drive everything back.  What a huge pain!

Part 5 – Destroying Gardens -  Leaving a garden mid-summer is a very frustrating event.  After putting in all the work caring for and growing vegetables, leaving before harvest was hard.

While there were these setbacks, it was a good summer overall.  Todd is now working in a professional position, we were able to buy a house, and our beautiful little princess has arrived.  The frustrations were real, but we are in a position 1,000x better than we were 1 year ago today.

We’ve got more plans, and it is great to be moving towards our dreams.  Even if the road is bumpy.

The Big Project

Everyone says an infant is a handful, but you don’t really know until you have one of your own. I love taking care of Elaina (usually). However, that means my “big project” for the time being is her, and unfortunately that puts a hold on everything else I want to do.

For the last two weeks, my dad has made a big batch of homemade soup for us to eat all week, because there is just not enough time to make dinner. Last night we managed pan-fried tilapia and baked potatoes. Not very interesting, but I was so proud of us for managing to cook!

The baby will be three weeks old tomorrow, and I am slowly seeing progress. Hopefully in just a couple weeks more I’ll find time to head back into the kitchen. I’ve found a few minutes here and there to knit (not many), but hopefully that will change soon, too. (Then we will be moving – decorating projects!) Todd is always fueling the fire with ideas of things we should do and try, and I’m eager to get back on track with him.

In the meantime, if you are missing my voice here on dreaming from scratch, know that it’s probably being used to sing a little angel to sleep.

Elaina and me

Me and my sleeping angel.

My Own Superwoman

I just wanted to make a quick post to let you know how great Ann is. She has done spectacular in recovery since the baby’s birth. She is operating at full steam and looking great! We’re working towards our goals and making some progress. We’ve still got a long way to go, but with Ann around, I feel unstoppable.

This is Ann a couple days before giving birth. Strong as an ox!

Last farmers market of the year - Huge Crowds!

Here she is exactly a week later. Two days after giving birth and strong as a bear!

Ann 7 days later and 25 pounds lighter!

I’m really proud of you Ann!

Darling little girl!

We’re shouting it from the rooftops – the most wonderful little person has finally arrived.

Elaina Maria was born at 12:38pm on October 14, 2010. She weighs 9lbs 9oz and is 21 inches long. Big baby!

Elaina Maria

Our Elaina, one minute old

She was due October 7 – waiting those last 7 days was excruciating, both physically and emotionally. I tried to be positive, but I was filled with anxiety. Though Todd tried to calm me, I was mostly inconsolable. Practitioners don’t like to see pregnancies go past 42 weeks because the placenta starts to age and be less effective (among other complications). So when the morning of October 13th arrived and Elaina had not, I knew that I would have to schedule an induction.

I am terrified of inductions. My mother was induced with my older sister and had a bad experience that nearly led to a hysterectomy (in which case I wouldn’t exist!) Furthermore, I knew that the drug they use, Pitocin, often makes contractions too strong for the mother to bear unmedicated. I wanted a natural birth, so I was afraid of the pain.

At my October 13th appointment, I reluctantly scheduled an induction for October 19th. Then I went home and cried. I walked 2 miles. I indulged in some comfort food to take the edge off of how miserable I was. She was heavy, hurting my back – every time she turned was quite painful. That night at abut 11:00, Todd and I went out to try to walk away my tears and fears – and also to get some cider. At 12:30 or so, Todd went to bed. I stayed up and stretched a little bit.

When I finally decided to lie down, about quarter to 2, I did one last stretch in bed to ease some hip pain and crack! I heard a loud popping noise that appeared to come from between my legs. I hopped out of bed and ran to the bathroom. Sure enough, my water had broken!!!! I yelled for Todd to get in there. He sleepily drug himself out of bed after the third or forth solicitation.

“Todd, look! My water broke!”

“It did?”

“Yes, look at this! And it’s still coming!”

“That’s great, Ann…”

And then he slowly lumbered off and crawled back in bed. Not the reaction I was going for. Read More…

Darling little goat!

I have a problem. I chronically underestimate the importance of a camera. Luckily, my father doesn’t. As part of our wedding gift, he gave us a video camera. Then a few days ago, he insisted on taking me to get a new digital camera for baby pictures. I am very excited about it, and I hope you enjoy the flood of photos and video I’ll be sharing when our little princess comes.

Over the last year, we’ve filled the video camera’s original memory card. Last night we changed it out to make space for the impending baby videos. However, before stowing it safely away, we enjoyed reviewing the footage.

This video is from our first visit to Becker Farms, and watching it really renewed my excitement about having our own little farm! The video is of me seeing a miniature goat for the first time. It’s not a baby, it’s just really tiny.